Me too! I never really gave much thought about identity until I left.
Now, even when I speak with my friends and family in Cameroon, there are still feelings I can't accurately transcribe.
There's a lot I still need to learn about Cameroon. The two European colonizers essentially built the framework for governance ( and ruin). So, it goes far beyond.
My grandparents were born in the French Speaking Region. My Parents, in the English Speaking Region. I was both and studied in the English Speaking Parts of the Country. However, my ethnic group, the Bamileke, is historically from the French Speaking Region. As a result, there's almost always confusion as to "where I belong".
I speak both French and English, which doesn't make the difference easy. lol
It's a life I am learning to disassemble and explore. Especially with the racial climate now in the US.