The prize of this post lies in that it has been expressed. Finally. That as much as the battle has raged and the weight pained, you’ve had the courage to pen it down.
But it is a daily battle isn’t it? By the many across the globe.
And I know it well. I believe where you and I come from ( Cameroon) this “condition” is often ignored and treated as “general sadness” or in the worse case scenario, our parents would say we are copying the west or pretending to be sick so that we would not have to do chores or fulfill tasks.
Sadly, depression is real and it kills.
Your representation is beautiful. But I find it incomplete. I may not be an eternal optimist, but what I know is that the only thing that lifts me up is internal motivation. The consumption of content ( articles, podcasts, videos) which provide me with insight on how to deal with my thoughts and channel those dark feelings towards a better purpose.
Of course, you have fully expressed your state. Brilliantly.
So here’s my point in one sentence: the protagonist of the movie got into an accident and the credits roll up. Did she make it? I’ll never know.